Through My Heart

I guess its that time again,

You go for a wedding and everyone suddenly remembers you are single

I have had nothing less than 5 hook-ups since Saturday

My bb list constantly growing and then deleting them after 3 hrs

My friends ask me are you not single and I just smile

Some take my smile as a yes

Some think I am just to shy to admit

I even get those that think it’s a go ahead for them to hook me up

But then I smile again….

They give me a quick snapshot of the guy

Make slight remarks about my past and how its time for me to move on

That smile quietly creeps in…..DANG!!!!

Now some see that as the hook-up green light

Some think its me reminiscing over my past

They move closer squeeze my hand and give me a consoling hug *we’ve all been there*

Some….I don’t even have a clue what is going on in their head

I take a deep breathe and I smile once again

Now I can see they are trying to figure out what is going on in that head of mine

But you see, I can only smile because to me…..

It’s complicated

You see I have so many messages, sayings, lectures… I ‘ve read so many books but I can’t help but wonder, how long will this journey be?

They say you should learn to enjoy the journey because thats the most important thing not the destination. But heaven knows  I can do with getting to atleast one destination.

Am I grateful for how far God has brought me? YESSSS…

Do I need a break from all the stuff  life throws at me????? Heck Yes

So basically, Lord all I am trying to say is thank you for the journey, trip, process but can I please get to a destination and just chill for a while.

I still cannot believe I am doing this…

My two sisters got into my head and told me to start a blog.  I somehow took their advice which could be a dangerous move from experience.

So here I am now wondering what the heck came over me.

I guess all I can say is…LET SEE HOW THIS GOES

I can promise you frequent postings

Neither can I promise you some live enriching words of wisdom

But what I can promise you is to share those random things that goes on within me because that’s the best I can do.

Have fun!!!!!!